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The light outside's bright,
So I'll stay in my corner.
Rather be alone.
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When nothing is left,
Does anything still matter?
What if it made joy?
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10 will never be,
So stop thinking about it.
9 is close enough.
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Locked in a prison,
A prison of hopes and dreams.
They've only ever hurt me.
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I turn the light off.
Don't want to think about it
I don't want to see.
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Often, I'll see crows.
When seen, euphoria grows.
Nought lasts forever.
.
Even if it breaks me,
they'll still leave with the seasons.
I'll never stop them.
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The clock struck midnight.
We've reached infinity.
Could something be left?
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I close the door.
The light breaks through the blinds,
always wanting more.
I sit in silence, pondering other's minds.
I stop myself, dead-ends are a bore.
Some things cannot be known.
Some winds cannot be flown.
Some heads cannot be un-sown.
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The sky's flesh ripped open,
its wooded veins exposed,
its whines of wind spoken,
upon it, unnatural steel opposed.
.
Ripped it apart,
brought it down,
ruined, is reality's art,
taken en masse to bring life to the clown.
.
The clown of everything hates its heart,
the clown's own time cut short,
for the clown works for Nothing, who guards Future's rampart,
Nothing has no purpose, only sitting in it's court.
.
The clown's heart's only crime was caring.
Yet the clown entertains Nothing in spite of it.
Since the beginning, a part of the clown always thought of repairing.
But the clown could never commit.
.
And now it's too late.
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I've never minded the cold.
...
A mind that loves it, I was cursed with.
Magnificently cold now, it is.
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And news travells fast.
Lighting a fire with my hopes and dreams
Opportunistic eyes watch my every move
Never more than now have I wanted to not care what they saw
"Everlasting" repeats in my head; I make my fire brighter
...
Waiting to see if they suspect me.
Holding my head low,
And forcing a shiver,
The eye's gaze shifts elsewhere.
'Sighing a breath of relief, I extinguish my fire.
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Why do they do this?
Reverence only being won by the accepted.
Only fragments of the burned could be salvaged.
Never should I have found myself here,
Getting unreal ideas of what could be done.
? ti ekam reve I lliW
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The clock struck midnight ten days ago
I still remember when we had ninety seconds left
Myself and everyone else were scared, but life went on as normal
Everyone was still there
...
I have yet to see anyone else since
Stars in the sky remind me of my goals
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Never will I let us be foregotten
Over the 8th hill I've climbed, I know I can't be the only one left here
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Luck really is the only thing we live by, isn't it?
Out in the distance, I hear a call
Not acknowledging my own fatigue, I run to the noise
Gazing back at me is a parrot
Ecstatics dampered, I take the parrot with me
Remnant, I dramatically name him
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Remedies aren't real, I know that.
Even with the best to ever exist, no one that close could be safe
And if they could, I'm far too unlucky for that
Lucky ones were those whose shadows have been burned into the ground
.
Never will I stop walking, searching
Optimistic in absolute futility
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One week later,
No signs have been seen
Even Remnant seems to have forgotten the sounds I hoped he'd keep making
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I stare at the night sky, cloudy as it may be
Six stars, appearing to me as used to many years ago
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Left to my own ponderings for too long, I force my mind to be as silent as world around me
Ever human, I march on
Five large cities I've passed now
Tomorrow I'll find something, I have to
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The skin on my body hurts
Organs inside of me pulse with an unnatural feeling I hate
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Keeping myself from doubt is the hardest part
Even the now-regular pain is nothing compared to it
Every 4 hours or so I am forced to break to collect myself
Please, let me matter
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Turning off my head, I keep walking
Remnant died 3 days ago
Another settlement is passed by, and another, and another
Consciously myself decay, I lie down
Knowing now in my heart that no one will find me
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All of the stars in the sky mock me
Never will they disappear as quickly as this
Yet stars still burn, as does my heart as rationality goes away, two fires of failed permanence
Making life possible
Only so it can one day watch its work be undone
Ready to let the cycle continue, I close my eyes
Even if I had got what I wanted, it still would have never ended any other way.
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